Well its been a bit since I have posted on here and I feel super shitty about that so since I made new years resolution to post on here more… so  I best get cracking as its already almost April.

My main issue is I am still processing the fact that we elected that idiot as president. So fair warning if you are a Trump fan… fuck off. I am not interesting in debating with you, I could get in a better debate with a brick wall. But his election brought a lot to the surface for me. This country is just as homophobic, racist, sexist and xenophobic as a thought but the rest of you white breeders assured me it wasn’t. Well maybe you should have listened to all your non-white and non-straight friends when they said things were not as great as you were making them out to be.

Now I have come to realize during and after this ridiculous election that we just all lived through that most of my family and friends are just as liberal and if not more so than I am. But all of my gay and non-white friends are still scared shitless and while having allies is great, we are still going to suffer more than you are. And no that isn’t said to make you pity us… I am saying it because its true. I am reminded of the famous speech by Martin Niemöller:

“First they came for the Socialists, and I did not speak out—
Because I was not a Socialist.

Then they came for the Trade Unionists, and I did not speak out—
Because I was not a Trade Unionist.

Then they came for the Jews, and I did not speak out—
Because I was not a Jew.

Then they came for me—and there was no one left to speak for me.”

And the fact is I will be one of the first groups of people his people come after and that scares the shit out of me. I don’t even know how to be process this. It has fucked with my head and brought up so much fear and anger in me. I am trying to channel it for good. But its hard not to just be bitter and angry.

So I shall try to start posting on here more and see if maybe through writing out my thoughts I can start to process this mess and find a bloody solution that doesn’t evolve moving to Canada, no matter how good I look in plaid….